I built this website for you, not just as an apology, but as a reflection of how much you mean to me. I’ve been replaying everything in my mind, trying to understand what I might have done to cause this silence between us. Whatever it is, I am so deeply sorry.
You’ve always been someone I hold close to my heart. If I’ve hurt you, if I’ve failed you in some way, it was never my intention. It tears me apart to think that something I did may have made you feel like shutting me out was your only option.
I’ve been clinging to the hope that I am the one at fault, that this distance is the result of my actions and not a deliberate choice to discard me. Because the thought of you simply choosing to turn away, knowing how much I care, feels unbearable.
You’re a part of my life that I never wanted to lose. And yet here I am, caught in this silence, unsure of how to bridge the gap. If there’s even a shred of a chance to make things right, I’m here, ready to listen, ready to change, and ready to do whatever it takes.
I’m sorry. For everything I’ve done and for everything I don’t yet understand. Your silence has left me questioning everything, and in my search for answers, I’ve arrived at a few possible reasons for why you’ve been distant. I wanted to share them with you, not to impose what I think is right, but to try to connect with what you might be feeling.
Religion
There are moments in life when faith and identity meet in ways that challenge understanding, and I’ve come to realize how my actions may have been part of that tension for you. I’ve spent countless sleepless nights wondering if I’ve unintentionally made you feel as though my thoughts, my words, or even my presence didn’t honor your values. That thought alone breaks my heart.
I see now that in my comfort, in my frustration, I may have crossed the line. If I ever made you feel uncomfortable being your true self around me, if I ever dismissed or disrespected the beliefs that bring you peace, I am so deeply sorry. That was never my intention, but intentions mean nothing without understanding the harm caused.
Your faith is important for you, and I’ve come to see it in a way I didn’t fully grasp before.
I promise you, from the depths of my heart, I will never let my arrogance or ignorance overshadow the respect I have for you and your journey again. I want to be someone who makes you feel seen, understood, and valued, not just for who you are but for everything you believe in.
I’m learning, and I hope to grow into someone who truly honors every part of who you are.
You deserve that, and so much more.
Homoromantic Confusion
We may have been too afraid of something lurking beneath the surface that we internalized and let manifest in ways neither of us ever expected. Our constant fear of crossing a line, fear of complicating our friendship, fear of confusing the deep connection we share with something else entirely, might have been what weakened us, causing us to act in ways we didn’t truly want.
I now realize that I may have pushed things too far, believing that you were comfortable with it when, in hindsight, maybe you weren’t. It was never my intention to make you feel uneasy, and for that, I am truly sorry. But I think it’s time we face the reality of what we need: we need stronger, clearer boundaries, and we need to talk openly about what we both feel without any fear or shame.
Did I Say Something Wrong?
I can’t help but question if I ever crossed a line with my words, my tone, my presence, or simply how I’ve reacted to certain situations. My deepest fear is that I inadvertently hurt you in some way by saying something I shouldn’t have. I can’t stop thinking about whether I’ve made you feel unimportant or invalidated, and I wish I knew exactly what it was so I could apologize for it.
If I ever said something that made you doubt your worth or caused you pain, I need you to know that it was never my intention. I hope you’ll give me the chance to listen, to truly understand your perspective, and to make things right between us.
